it hit me hard,
burning
scalding
like coffee too hot
I tried to swallow
to spit it up
but I was behind
one second too late
blisters came
rising and hurting
a reminder of what was
what had been
I turn my eyes away
can't meet that burning flame
because I'm already scarred
suffering in pain
but still I reach out
reach out to you
touching you
watching you turn
but I have to pull back
as your face twists
watch your hand raise
then you turn away
the pain is worse now
the burning is so cold
my heart is frozen
and the smoldering is dead
and I know now
as you walk away
you don't want me around
you never did
It wasn’t a romantic setting.
We were crouched together in the alleyway behind McGregor’s pub
where smells of substandard alcohol and cigarette smoke stained the air
and the muffled song of drunks could be heard from inside, seeming to leak through the walls.
Only, those weren't things I noticed that night.
Instead, I noticed the smell of his cologne,
a smell I recognised only from chilly days on the beach.
Like sea salt blown through cold wind,
and I noticed the sound of his steadfast breaths:
hot and sharp, but reliable; comforting.
As I buried myself in the radiating folds of his shirt
he whispered that I was his world
and
If I were invisible
would you notice that I was gone?
If I were invisible
would you care?
Perhaps I don't need to be invisible
You look through me as it is
as if I were never there.
Perhaps I don't need to be invisible
no one sees me as I am
but who I pretend to be.
If I were invisible
would things change?
If I were invisible
would I be alone?
Or maybe if I were invisible
you would join me
maybe
we could be together.
tell me what is a hero?
is it someone who knows it all?
tell me, what is a hero?
I don't know what you think
I know what a hero is
A hero is someone who will
risk his life to stop the men
the men ready to kill.
a hero is someone who will
not think of himself
but give it all.
Tell me what is a hero?
A hero is someone
who with no thought of their own life
will they down theirs
so that others may live.
am I the only one
trying to pretend
it didn't happen?
am I the only one
telling myself
it's okay?
am I the only one
feeling nothing
watching the devastation
and the emptiness
is the only thing there?
My heart tells me those people died
my mind tells me it doesn't affect you.
so I try
I really do.
but when I feel
the pain is so deep.
so cutting.
so hard.
so am I the only one pretending
I'm okay?
The anger(rising up in me)
it is(sinking what is left of me)
tell me(when will this end?)
you always(tell me how wrong I am)
you never(tell me I did a good job)
it's always(just how bad I am)
when can(I ever be what you want?)
how will(I ever please you?)
tell me(now)
angry I(can't tell you how angry I am)
I don't(care anymore)
It doesn't(matter at all)
You've given(it all away)
so now(so have I)
what was(is gone forever)
the anger(burns deep in me)
nothing can(quench the pulsing heat)
nothing but(the love of you)
but that is gone.
forever gone.
I feel peaceful,
talking to you.
But when I look away
you're gone again
and I wonder what I've done.
They never tell me
let go of my hand.
Walk away
I search the day.
But I find no help.
Can you tell
what's wrong with me?
Will you set me free?
Will you be honest?
Or will you close your eyes?
You wait in the night
You're careful with my heart
you care
you say
and I believe you.
My hear can only
break so far.
so be careful
with the pieces that are left
or I will fade away.
In this time
I must say farewell to me
Let this party die
Let the lights go down
Leave this stage
It's not about me
It's not about the show
It's not about what I give
Or what I don't give
It's a matter of sacrifice
I could stand up here
Tell the world what I do
How I stand
Let the brilliance shine on me
And let the whole world know
But is this what matters?
Is this what must happen?
Or in this darkness
Better peace be found
Standing on an empty stage
Because it's not about the crowds
It's not about the lights
It's about a matter of sacrifice
VS 1
I felt invisible, like no one cared, no one saw, no one dared, I was lost, somewhere in the crowd, one in thousands with no one to be there, lost, desperate, in the dark, silence gripping my body, and chaining me here
BRIDGE
But one night I closed my eyes and in my dream I saw You hanging there
CHORUS
Nailed to the cross, Your love pouring down, mingling with the dirt on the ground, Your hands holding my sin, Your body scourged deep, Your love held You there, feeling my pain and taking my punishment, and as I looked You raised Your eyes to meet mine and with love falling like tears from Your eyes, You gave Your life and died for me
The waters are rough,
the stormy ways go
We are pounded to the ground
we sink lower, but
we all learn to fly.
The sky seems far away
We reach, we look, it hides,
the stars, forever gone
We feel laden to the Earth, lost, but
we all learn to fly.
What springy joy revives
What dance fills your heart
The warmth of the stars, the smile of the wind
The freeness and gift of wings
when you learn to fly.
we all do.